I'm getting so paranoid, it's three weeks to school reopen, and yet i felt it's ending soon. Perhaps it was never meant to be a holiday for me, labwork at least thrice a week over at ntu, uncountable chinese assessments, hrp, ace, there never seems to be a red light to it. Nothing good is happening so far, i've yet to start on my hrp, and i don't even know how i should begin with my survey, where as faking results seems to be the most viable option to me at the moment. Physics toy seems such a hard thing to produce, i'm clueless on how to apply whatever concept learnt during lessons to make something which eventually will operate without batteries. Counting the total amount of comprehension for both the chinese assessment books, it should add up to 18, i'm not gonna finish that for sure. As for my labwork, the experiments are getting results so far, but doesn't seem to be shaped well, i felt like i was just doing the labwork, and don't even know what i wanna achieve.

I still gotta raise funds by selling around 75 collar-pins/keychains for the Children's Cancer Foundation at later part in the afternoon, and i'll be doing that alone. Weisheng has almost finished selling his, while i only managed to take three off the load. Most probably i'll be stationing around jurong east after my labwork, and eventually hope to sell finish everything without facing much rejection from the public since i'm feeling emotional stress at the moment. Social life is so grayish, and there's simply nothing i can look forward to in this holiday. I wonder who's gonna remember my birthday and organize something for me, or maybe i would just simply be procrastinating at home. Lastly, i hate YOU for daoing and i wish you would never seek any help from me again since it doesn't pay to be good.

With all that, i just hope i can play basketball everyday with my teammates for this holiday without having a single worry about anything related to academics. It's just a stress-free life i desire, but it's just so lonely and hollow inside.

Tag-reply:
zhiyang: hi
spooky & bryan: i don't watch porn so stop having weird thoughts of me doing that in your polluted minds
brena: there's simply nothing special about that ice-cream, 12 bucks is way too EX :\

tzin